A,

Did you know that after the Amistad trial, Cinque, the slave who led the rebellion, returned to Africa, and went on to be a successful slave trader?

I read that a year ago in an E. R. Shipp column in the Daily News. I think about it quite a bit, as an example of how humans behave, what they are willing to accept in themselves for profit, comfort, and control.

This morning I watched a porn movie, the only one I own, and noticed that the woman who's getting screwed and screaming has a big C-section scar.

A, will you come over and repeat the offer from last week?

A, I am scared of sex, big time. I think about it, I listen to other people talk about it, I lust for it, and I feel like there's a monster under the bed.

I'll listen and respond with more than head-shaking, I promise.

Love,

Paul