By Paul Ford
Cognition has broken down. There is nothing to describe except warm pressure.
You couldn't see the concrete because the sidewalk was made entirely of sun. I was not eating, but interacting with - loving, feeling - a bright green, quickly melting all-natural lime popsicle. I needed this lime pop. The things I have
needed in my life are:
- A liberal education
- Intelligent girlfriends
- The love and approval of others
- This lime pop
I wanted to get the lime pop home and up to my room, then undress it from its plastic foil wrapper and put it in my mouth.
I know that seems obviously metaphoric but it is not. The relationship with the lime pop is not one of consumption and control
but of internalization. I want to be the lime pop, to feel what it feels, its arctic coolness, not to subsume and control
the lime pop. Were there a way to experience the lime pop without destroying it, I would do that, and I would seek to preserve
its green essence.
There was no way, and I couldn't wait. A few steps from my building I pulled it from the paper bag and shredded the wrapper,
reveling in the sudden presence. I was half-finished when I arrived at my front door. I was no more dignified than a dog.
My teeth rang out in my skull, struck like little bells by the popsicle's cold and sweetness.
The neighborhood peoples were stoop-sitting. I have no stoop. I wish I did. I'd sit out and read and bake my skin until it
turned the color of a sunset. I saw an alleycat explode. It was orange, and mewling, then poof. My air conditioner blows hot. It will end, yes.
. . . . .
See also: Heat Effect.
PEEK
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About the author: I've been running this website from 1997. For a living I write stories and essays, program computers, edit
things, and help people launch online publications. (LinkedIn). I wrote a novel. I was an editor at Harper's Magazine for five years; then I was a Contributing Editor; now I am a free agent. I was also on NPR's All Things Considered for a while. I still write for The Morning News, and some other places.
If you have any questions for me, I am very accessible by email. You can email me at ford@ftrain.com and ask me things and I will try to answer. Especially if you want to clarify something or write something critical. I am
glad to clarify things so that you can disagree more effectively.
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@20, by Paul Ford.
Not any kind of eulogy, thanks. And no header image, either.
(October 15)
Recent Offsite Work: Code and Prose.
As a hobby I write.
(January 14)
Rotary Dial.
(August 21)
10 Timeframes.
(June 20)
Facebook and Instagram: When Your Favorite App Sells Out.
(April 10)
Why I Am Leaving the People of the Red Valley.
(April 7)
Welcome to the Company.
(September 21)
“Facebook and the Epiphanator: An End to Endings?”.
Forgot to tell you about this.
(July 20)
“The Age of Mechanical Reproduction”.
An essay for TheMorningNews.org.
(July 11)
Woods+.
People call me a lot and say: What is this new thing? You're a nerd. Explain it immediately.
(July 10)
Reading Tonight.
Reading!
(May 25)
Recorded Entertainment #2, by Paul Ford.
(May 18)
Recorded Entertainment #1, by Paul Ford.
(May 17)
Nanolaw with Daughter.
Why privacy mattered.
(May 16)
0h30m w/Photoshop, by Paul Ford.
It's immediately clear to me now that I'm writing again that I need to come up with some new forms in order to have fun here—so
that I can get a rhythm and know what I'm doing. One thing that works for me are time limits; pencils up, pencils down. So:
Fridays, write for 30 minutes; edit for 20 minutes max; and go whip up some images if necessary, like the big crappy hand
below that's all meaningful and evocative because it's retro and zoomed-in. Post it, and leave it alone. Can I do that every
Friday? Yes! Will I? Maybe! But I crave that simple continuity. For today, for absolutely no reason other than that it came
unbidden into my brain, the subject will be Photoshop. (Do we have a process? We have a process. It is 11:39 and...)
(May 13)
That Shaggy Feeling.
Soon, orphans.
(May 12)
Antilunchism, by Paul Ford.
Snack trams.
(May 11)
Tickler File Forever, by Paul Ford.
I'll have no one to blame but future me.
(May 10)
Time's Inverted Index, by Paul Ford.
(1) When robots write history we can get in trouble with our past selves. (2) Search-generated, "false" chrestomathies and
the historical fallacy.
(May 9)
Bantha Tracks.
(May 5)
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