Having refused to get on the scale for at least a year. This emphatically is a disaster. I need to wake up my children and feed them bagels. But as I'm going I'll be dead or dramatically weakened. Nothing works; the compulsion takes over and over and over, the denial is basically a massive and immovable wall. I am convinced no one can help me or will help me. I'm not even in a particularly bad mood; it's just that there's this immense system of absolute batshit insanity in the middle of my head and its immovable.
Weight: 408 lbs