Man my god I'm RESISTANT and just dawdling and having trouble focusing on myself.
I feel guilty taking the time because I'm so close on so many things and burning out a little. I feel that I should always be doing something else and so I end up spinning a lot.
I have been drinking a little too much but I have also done good real cardio three times in the last three days, making sure to stay on the elliptical for a half-hour or going for an hour walk in blazing sun to lunch instead of just grabbing something.
I find myself grabbing extra calories in the form of handfuls of cereal and so forth.
I need to just relax into it. Everything is swirling. This will never change. This is who I am.
I need to just let it swirl and figure out what I want to get out of it.
| Food | Qty | Calories |
|---|---|---|
| Cereal breakfast, typical (2 c. cereal, 1 c. lowfat milk) | 320 | |
| Total | 320 |