Okay my god I am exhausted. That was a long weekend with the children. I am dealing now. I saw that video of the guy who died in a chokehold. He's about my size. He died of either a heart attack or asthma. It made me think about my own body, my own ways of dealing. I'm going to work on this again and again. I can figure it out.
There's another aspect which is that I think I'm at a kind of threshold: I can be an ill person who does his best to manage his compulsions or a healthy person who has an illness that he manages.
But the real deal comes later in the day when I am actually hungry and things start to feed into one another.
I need to stay aware then. I am going to make a note of it.
| Food | Qty | Calories |
|---|---|---|
| Cereal breakfast, typical (2 c. cereal, 1 c. lowfat milk) | 320 | |
| Total | 320 |