May 25, 2013 - Breakfast

I found a video of myself in heavier days. Very upset to see it but it helped me connect to the person who made a choice to protect himself, to lose weight. It's clear now why it's so important to get better. That this is a kind of illness, and I do better the more I acknowledge it as such. Having this picture and these words—well, I also found the notes from the reading where I talked about my secret diet blog. Sometimes I need to remember that I am a certain kind of thing in this world and that I would do well to protect that thing; that it is my job to protect that thing in the world, both for myself and come now for the world too, which needs as much of what I have to offer as it can get, so filled is it with anger and recrimination and tribalism.